The Hearts God Gave Me

Photo by MKR

In the beginning of 2001, I was very depressed. I had health problems, and I had just gone on disability at the end of 2000, and I was no longer working. I wasn’t eating much and I wasn’t sleeping much. I lost a lot of my friends because of it. I would have felt so much better if I would have just been able to get some sleep because I was exhausted.

That year it was a dreary cold winter. Then one day during that cold winter I remember looking at one of my plants after I watered it. The leaves on the schefflera plant come to a point on each end but that day I found a heart shaped leaf. I was amazed and happy. I decided to see if any of the other leaves looked different. And what do you know? I found another one. I found two heart shaped leaves on the same plant on the same day. It reminded me of the Sacred Hearts of Jesus and Mary.

I took the leaves and pasted them on the inside of a card that said, “nothing is impossible with God” on the front of it. I cherished that card and kept it for years until one day I got mad at God and ripped it up. I regretted it instantly. I pray someday God will transform in secret two more leaves on the schefflera plant again, but if He doesn’t, I will be okay. He gave that gift to let me know He sees me and cares. and I will cling to that.